When
the letter came, Hadriel Alighieri felt that life, as he knew it, was over. The
time for his mandatory military service had come. Though selection was made by
a lottery system, fate had determined that Hadriel Alighieri’s time with Sophia
Paula would end.
Six years together as the best of friends
allowed them to learn as much as there was to discover about two kids who had
yet to truly discover themselves, but as the date of his departure for the
military approached, Hadriel was moved by the fear of what would be lost, and
preemptively reached for her heart.
On her birthday in mid-July, he presented
her with a letter, and two poems that confessed his desire to be more than
friends. He selfishly ignored that he was leaving in less than sixty-days.
The entire village was abuzz when it was
discovered that Hadriel Alighieri had revealed his feelings to Sophia Paula,
because it wasn't a secret that could easily be kept. Everyone knew how close
they were, and noticed that they had spent a week apart. A peculiarity that
raised eyebrows, and inspired inquiries about "what happened?"
Even Padre Carlo Coelho weighed in on the
matter when he found Hadriel Alighieri sitting alone on a bench in the plaza.
The cleric sat down beside him without saying a word. After a while, Hadriel Alighieri
turned to the old man and asked if this is why people pray.
“People pray for many things. God will
grant you your request, if you ask Him from the heart.” Padre Carlo Coelho
pointed at his chest.
“Matthew seven, seven. Yes, Padre, I’m
aware of the verse, but if God holds sway over another’s heart, then is it true
love?” Hadriel Alighieri closed his book.
Padre Carlo Coelho pondered the question
and scratched his chin. God’s will,
he thought. If whom we love is God’s will, then free will is merely an
illusion. And if we love whom we choose to love, then how can God punish us?
Padre
Carlo Coelho intuitively understood what Hadriel Alighieri endured. For he too
had once fallen in love, in his native Brazil, when he was a boy and love was a
hopeless passion. He remembered her still, Maria Ruiz-Gonzalez, the angel that
paralyzed his heart. Padre Carlo Coelho reflected on the kindness in her hazel
eyes, and the comfort he felt in her embrace. He always loved to see her wear
her long wavy brown hair twisted in a braid over her shoulder.
Her
heart was restless and her laugh contagious, but it was her smile that he
remembered most. For when Carlo Coelho emerged from the ashes of the fire on
December 15th, 1961, the Gran Circus Norte-Americano’s premier transformed
into a tragedy that claimed five hundred lives. Among the dead lied Maria
Ruiz-Gonzalez, and the unborn seed in her womb.
Devastated,
Carlo Coelho fell into a deep depression, and there was no power on earth to
grant him solace. Within a broken heart lie
a realm of impenetrable shadows, and the echo of what could have been. A
devout Catholic, he turned to God for answers, but He did not answer. Not at
first.
Then,
one morning, he woke in the street. Carlo Coelho had passed out from the
excessive consumption of alcohol, and wandered in the night in search of the
shadow of death. Instead, Azrael had come to him in a dream.
“Can
I tell you a secret?” Azrael leaned in close.
Carlo
Coelho gave the angel of death a guarded look.
“You
possess the answers that you seek.” Azrael whispered.
Carlo
Coelho inched away. The angel of death nodded at Carlo Coelho’s chest. Carlo
felt something press against his ribs. He rummaged through his pockets to see
what Azrael referred to. He pulled out a flask, and tangled around the lip was a
rosary.
How did this get here,
he wondered. For Carlo Coelho had not seen his rosary since his First
Communion. “You are the devil!” He looked at Azrael, astonished.
“I
am not the devil.” Azrael loomed closer. “He is kinder than I.”
Carlo
Coelho woke from his drunken dream. The sun peered over the peak of the
Corcovado Mountain. A silhouette loomed at its summit. The statue of Christ the
Redeemer with outstretched arms was the sign that led Carlo Coelho to take the
Cloth. For he had long ago promised Maria Ruiz-Gonzalez that he would never
love another woman, and he intended to keep his promise.
Thirty-three
years later, he sat on a bench in the plaza beside Hadriel Alighieri. He knew
how the boy felt. He was familiar with the seismic tremor of young love.
At eighteen years of age, Hadriel
Alighieri presented young love with the fervor of a man, no longer a boy
enthralled by childhood obsessions.
Padre Carlo Coelho was right: puppy love is all bark, no bite, but
young love with its refined romanticism gently caresses a heart, so as to not
disturb the rhythm of its beat. Learning it, studying it, until the breathing
falls in sync and the heart falls in love.
Hadriel’s error was in his haste, or so
he thought. He granted Sophia Paula space to reflect on the words he poured
onto pages. Lyrical, liquid love as strong as ninety-proof alcohol, and she was
left with a hangover that lasted a week. Though the permanent intoxication,
he'd learn many years later, never truly dissipated. The words of the letter
had long since been whisked away by time, but the poems he kept prisoner in his
heart. In a realm that remained interlocked with hers.
When Sophia’s reply arrived in the form
of a letter, Hadriel raced home to retrieve it. He entered his home and found
La Señora Keila seated beside his mother. She stood and
approached. Her eyes shone with the giddiness of a schoolgirl awaiting a letter
from her own, first true love.
"She sent for you." La Señora
Keila embraced him. "What happened?"
"I was in the plaza." Hadriel
Alighieri answered. "Is she here?"
"She went out for a walk, but she
left you this." La Señora Keila brandished an envelope with his
name written in Sophia Paula’s tight cursive script.
He studied her smile for any indication
of the contents of the letter, and asked, "Did she say anything to
you?"
"No, mijo. She has kept to herself
all week. She didn't come out of her room except to eat, shower, and go to
work."
Hadriel’s blank stare fell to the floor,
and he wondered how Sophia Paula felt.
"Something you should know Hadriel
is that despite how beautiful my daughter is, and despite how much attention
she gets from boys, no one has ever approached her in this way.”
La Señora Keila
explained that no man had ever taken the time to pen his emotions in a letter;
no one had ever given much thought to courting her with romantic poetry
inspired by sincere expressions with carefully considered words. She knew that Sophia
appreciated Hadriel’s sincerity.
Sophia Paula had never before secluded
herself from the world to consider the prospect of love. She had been moved. Regardless
of what she wrote to Hadriel Alighieri, he needed to know that if it hadn’t
affected her then she wouldn't have responded at all, or she wouldn't have
taken so long to formulate her reply. La Señora Keila believed
that by making the effort to consider her own words carefully, it revealed more
than one letter from her would ever say.
La Señora Keila embraced
Hadriel, and he fled to the sanctuary of his room. The note within the envelope
had merely been a request for a little more time. Without much appetite and
with very little sleep, Hadriel Alighieri clung to hope. A low rapping at the
door distracted him from his thoughts. His mother stood beside a servant from
the home of the Paula’s with a message that Sophia wished to meet him in the
garden.
She sat on a bench beneath a mango tree.
Her green eyes were pensive, and glistening in the evening light. Sophia Paula
smiled when Hadriel Alighieri approached. She stood to embrace him and invited
him to take a seat. It was the same stone bench where they conversed for the
first time. In essence, it was the center of their universe. It was where their
friendship began.
She asked him about his reasons, and his
timing. For it perplexed her that he professed his love on the eve of leaving
for the military. He sat with her in silence. His voice escaped him, just as it
had when they first met. He tried to say something, but he feared ruining the
moment. He feared chasing her away. For he never felt more at ease than when he
was in her presence.
La Señora Keila stepped
out onto the terrace before he replied. She called out to Sophia Paula, and
reminded her that they didn’t have much time. Dazed, Hadriel Alighieri could
have sworn he heard La Señora Keila mention packing and the move.
In those few minutes, the sun fell beyond
the horizon and destiny and chance were taken with the day. La Señora
Keila called out to her again. Sophia Paula stood and waved at her mother
before she turned again to Hadriel Alighieri.
“Remember me as I am.” She said to him.
She left him under a tree and under the
moon and under the stars. She did not promise to return. She gave him a kiss
and a letter. A long letter that was difficult to write. A letter that gave him
a glimpse into her heart and revealed her confusion.
He watched her leave with tears in his
eyes. He already realized how completely he would cherish the memory of the
only woman he would ever truly love. After reading the letter, he folded it the
way she folded it, and kept it folded that way until the end of his days.
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